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About Me …

I’m forty-seven years old, married to the greatest man in the world, mother to two terrific kids (ages 16 and 11), and gainfully employed as a faculty member at a local university. I’ve worked hard in therapy to find happiness and comfort in my own skin.

I used to have a terrible secret: I was sexually, physically, and emotionally abused by my grandfather for about fourteen years. Not only did I endure the pain of the abuse, but I carried its mark with me into adulthood. My grandfather convinced me that I was a “terrible, awful, bad person.” He told me that I’d be in “big trouble” if anybody ever found out the truth about how bad I was. That’s an incredibly frightening thought to a two-year-old little girl.

I carried the inescapable “truth” of my innate badness with me into adulthood and continually worked to hide my “real” nature. After all, if anyone ever figured out what a terrible, awful, bad person I was, then I’d be in “big trouble.”

I said “used to have a terrible secret” previously because I’ve learned now that he was actually the “terrible, awful, bad person” and I was simply the little girl he abused. Near the end of 2006, I began to grasp what Maggie and Carol – and Garth and Mary and Cheryl – had been trying to tell me for a very long time:

- It was not my fault.

- I am not a terrible, awful, bad person.

- It is okay to be “me” because I’m actually a good person.

My book fills in some details about the abuse and follows my struggles to escape the lies he told me and find the real truth that everyone else saw in me.

My wish for you is that you will find hope and healing on your own journey.

You can read all my book online for free. Just click here.



If you wish, you may send me an e-mail message. (Please understand that I may not be able to respond to every one.)

I have also created a website devoted to survivors of incest and other sexual abuse.

Thank you for reading about me.

May God bless you on your journey.